As for the days of our life, they contain seventy years, Or if due to strength, eighty years…(Psalms 90:10a)
According to the above verse, if strength of life is our gift, we have about 80 years or so to live on the planet. Some people have a few more, some less, only the Lord knows. However, 80 is a good number to work with. Today I turn 60 years old. That is a difficult number to write and even more difficult to accept. But it indeed is a fact. That means, based on the 80 year mark, I’m three quarters through my tenure. The Bible further adds: So teach us to number our days, That we may present to You a heart of wisdom.(Psalm 90:12)
The Psalmist is indicating that the knowledge of the brevity of our lives can awaken us. Numbering our days awakens the desire to live with our hearts centered in and drawing life from God alone. This is living with wisdom.
So the question is; what do I do with my final quarter? As far as my work, unless the Lord changes my direction, I’m pretty clear on what that is: more – more ministry, countries, nationals and missionaries. And frankly I hope to work until the day I go Home. I love my work.
But there is more. Here are some of my rambling thoughts about my final quarter:
I wish to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I cannot learn what it has to teach, and not, when I come to die, to discover that I had not lived. I do not wish to live what is not life, living is so dear;……… I want to live deeply and suck out all the marrow of life, (Excerpts from Thoreau)
I want to grow in childlikeness and be done with childishness
I want to stay soft clay in the hands of the Potter and not allow age to cause me to become stiff or inflexible to His forming and shaping of my heart
I want to be so secure and at peace with who I am at this age and stage of life, that I am more aware than ever of those around me
I want to live fully in the present and make no fearful mind journeys into the future
I want judgementalism to wither and die and compassion to abound and flourish
I want to impart, encourage and build up those who are younger than me, those who will continue their journey when mine is complete
I want to embrace Truth and reject deception
I want to continue my journey of discovering the very heart of God, to know Him, really know Him and not live by past revelations
I want to be a bride that is pleasing to the Bridegroom
I want to be found faithful
In recent times I have become more aware than ever that my worth and value come from the Lord, my inheritance is in heaven, and my wealth is measured by my relationships. I am a blessed man indeed. I’m looking forward to living in the final quarter.